5iFth sepTeMber

05 September 2019

TRUTH

The strong voices inside my head?


Our mind is a really fast one. There should be a myth that speaks of how the mind tends to be a person of it’s own, because most times we are randomly thinking of things we didn’t think of thinking. Ironic.

The ability to control ones mind can be tagged a great super power. And yes, it’s a super power. It goes beyond what we can see. For something we know to exist but cannot see, that is, the mind. It’s possible it can also be controlled by something that exists but we cannot see.

The power of the mind is a core of existence. With the mind plans and ideas are born, emotions are starred into existence and creativity is realised but when it comes to thinking, it seems to take more and more of the lead.
A prayer to God requesting the grace to control ones mind and think the right thoughts might just turn out to be the solution to your problems and the beginning to a whole new perspective and attitude.
The mind really does change everything.
Romans 12:2 proves that God very well understood the power the mind can have over humans and I believe he has made provisions to deal with it.

Today, I like to think of the mind as that part of ourselves that chases it’s kind. We can’t see the mind, therefore it lives hunting the things we don’t see. It’s more of a spirit. The mind is the part of ourselves that connects to the world we don’t see but does exists. It houses the spirits we don’t see and that’s why it’s hard to control the mind.
If you can understand that even words are spirits, then the previous paragraph wouldn’t leave you feeling like this is too spiritual.

The mind is a house more like a battlefield where spirits come to live and possibly fight over your will; thinking right or wrong. Offer your mind to God to control.
The physical you here can’t see your mind. Your mind is a spirit being that can see just what’s inside.

The soul the spirit being and God the spirit being. 
Together make a man.

This morning I saw an orange butterfly and I said, “Hey nameless, do you even have a mind of your own? If you don’t then you aren’t really living.” It has no battles to fight and challenges to take down. If you really want to change what you are, you first have to gain the power to tame your mind. Your mind is your existence itself. Your mind: your soul, thinking and thoughts, will power or decision power, your emotions, planned reactions, the subconscious, the spirits you let possess your body… All need to be refined…

4ourTh SepteMber

04 September 2019
Maybe today wasn’t so great. Maybe it was.
Today is not a day I can call productive, except stalking successful people became something amazingly productive.
In the process of becoming, I have stopped at different junctions. I have screamed at several junctions just to justify my frustration.

The part I’ll not forget is the part where you see other people living your dreams already. This will not be toxic for you if you stick to being happy they’re making it rather than comparing. This is pretty hard but it’s the right thing to do.
Well, in other to become what you desire … I think it’s necessary to stalk and admire and simply see how others live your dreams. If this doesn’t happen you wouldn’t really know what your dreams look like. You’ve got to see other people rock it better.

Mark Manson has led me through the acknowledgement of our innate human languages: pain, suffering, being unsatisfied e.t.c. Satisfaction, fulfilment and happiness are not constant, it’s a constant walk towards them.

I downloaded a piece title peaceful relaxing soothing… It will be playing for over one hour and for the next one hour I pray I don’t over analyse my invisible work and progress. Maybe all I want to do is drown and feel the words in the title of this tune I downloaded. Like nothing ever happened. Like I don’t feel frustrated. Like the money I spent on purchasing the data I used for simply stalking the internet will turn into an investment.
So much cash, that I don’t have. So all that’s left to investing is my time, mind and emotions. Maybe the tune turned intoxicating cause my hands are just dancing on the keyboard while my eyes are staring at the words I am creating on the white screen.
Just right now, it started raining and the lights went out. Some things will never stop seeming magical… I
I just…

P. S Sorry this post is too personal and….

But that’s what this month’s for. I have to write everyday. It’s a challenge and I took it. And whether it makes sense or not, I AM POSTING IT!

NOTE: The post picture was not taken by me.

Fighting!

THiRd SeptEmber

3 September 2019 .

SMILE


I can’t help but think of a smile from a different perspective and this is strictly based on experience.
Smiling is more than just expressing an emotion. It’s more than expressing joy, excitement, happiness and gratitude. When I think of smiling, I see it as a way of telling your story but ending the story with a message. I see it as a window that emits light.

A Smile is a form of energy that can be transferred from one person to another. It’s one that displays the light that lives in a person’s soul. If your soul is not full of light, then your smile cannot have life in it.


Have you ever looked at someone’s smile and just smile along? Have you experienced a contagious smile? I believe the light that shines from our soul holds a message. It can be for negative reasons or positive.
Example, if someone has been in a hopeless situation and grown to have hope, this experience heals their wounds and fill them with light. So if that person smiles at you, your soul is more likely to register and feel of hope.
This is a personal experience: Radhi Devlukia Shetty is a woman I’ve thought about deeply. Just observing her facial expressions helped me understand this. It felt like magic the way her smiles made me smile instantly. I just look at her and smile. When I thought of her, I felt more light. At first it felt too weird to be true. But the invisible world far exceeds the things your mere eyes can see and understand.
This woman’s smile led me towards wishing to have that light lingering in my smile. That hopeful smile. When I see her smile, all I think of is hope for the future and freedom from life’s load.
There are many more messages a smile can tell someone. It could tell you to be patient, to hang on, to be peaceful , to be grateful, to be hardworking, to do more, or even to rest. To concur to something and more…

Did I try to smile like her? Yes I did. I felt my smile was not just bright as hers, I wanted it to make people smile. One night I was resolving an inner conflict I had with myself and after that I realised that my smile and Radhi’s smile didn’t have to look the same. I had my story and she had hers. Our smile could look different but send the same light, the same message; maybe hope or love or fulfillment or healing. All that mattered was that it was real and not forced; that was a moment of peace for me.

I thought about a story from Sheila Walsh’s book, Get off your knees and pray. The story was about a baby born with down syndrome and the pain the parents felt from this challenge. He grew up but not as a normal kid. He couldn’t learn easily, he was made fun of, might never get married or have children. Here are some statements from this chapter I wouldn’t forget in a hurry:
Sheila said,“I wish I could show you a picture of this young man’s smile. There is a gentle grace about him and a deep abiding sense of the presence of God and his angels.”
His mom said,“People have told me they can tell he loves the Lord, his faces shines! …”
This is a life testimony of Eric Kuntz’s smile. You can see that his smile tells a message of God’s grace as it shines. Amazing thought to me.

“He cries when someone else cries (even if he doesn’t know why he is crying)… “


Smile from your heart. Give light to people. It’s an affordable gift you can throw around. You can throw it right at people’s face and they wouldn’t get offended. No one will punch you for throwing this gift! Put a message on your smile. Not just for your selfies.

Be more than a flashlight.

SMiLe.
P.S Tell me, can you relate to this?

SeConD SepTembeR

2 September 2019
“Why do I have a feeling this September thoughts challenge will turn out to be a September daily questions that didn’t get instant Answers.”


HYPOCRITE ?


Hypocrisy might just be the subject of my racing thought today.
Lately all the preachings I’ve been stumbling into have been talking about being more like Christ. About bringing out love and letting it shine on people.
Brett Harris said doing hard things, that is great works, doesn’t depend on how big or small they are. Sometimes it’s about having the right attitude for the ordinary things (do you know how hard that could get).

For teens and young adults trying to get things done, it’s easy to get frustrated when things doesn’t work out but sometimes we just need to be the first change. Then I looked to myself.
How is your attitude towards the house chore? Does my mom find me positive to be around? Do my siblings feel comfortable around me?
The reality of it is I’m way nicer to strangers than the people around me. This fact fills me with guilt and I’m left to ask, why am I not also that bright light my siblings need in their life? I can’t help but wish I was some pollyanna.
Why is it hard to deal with the people really next to us?
Does your attitude towards strangers really count when your siblings are not really benefiting from that attitude?
Does this make me a hypocrite now or is this normally normal?

P. S Two days after this draft, I saw a tweet like:

Why are the best people always far away…

FRisT SepTemBer


Welcome to the month of September and this month I’m trying out intentional living. It’s pretty hard to stay conscious of your actions even for just a day. The feeling of being overwhelmed or taken unawares makes this possible. Even at this, for just a fraction of the day we can take our time to acknowledge our thoughts.

September morning thoughts
Over no coffee…

1 September 2019
You pretty much woke up to first September without thinking about it the previous night. You weren’t even conscious of the fact that the next morning was a new month. So, you pretty much rushed your way through church preparations…

At 1:00 AM you were resisting your sleep just so you can put this thought down:
What if I could play the piano so well.
What if I had a grand piano.
What if I wasn’t really scared of learning? Or not so lazy?
What if I was a polyglot already? Without so much of the work.
What if I bought a guitar with my food summit fee? What if I had enough money, and much more, enough confidence to invite the girls I love for a night chat over nice snack. What if I had an apartment for this?
What if I had my room on the roof top.
What if I already got most of the things I wished for.
In the deepest, what if all the people I admire from afar, the people that love me from afar, get to live close to me and realise I am not the angel they thought I was. What if at that close moment they face a reality of broken expectations. I just hope they know from the distance that I am not perfect. If the people around me can find me tiring, what happens to all those that love me from the different time zones we live?
What if I disappoint the people I admire from afar?

The ones that only receive my messages and not my attitude.

Fresh bugs… Mind bugs.

When I thought of why and how to release these thoughts for other people to see, I cringed again.

Why do you want people reading and knowing what you’re thinking? Are you a star? Why do you think people will want to know what you’re facing? Remember you’re boring and pretty weird. Even your mom says you talk about weird things and write in a weird style… I think she used a word worst than weird.


Where do you even put it? You don’t have a great blog? The free one looks so immature and people like high quality stuff; I’m sure you know that.

Just wave this off and go the hell to sleep. That’s all you need.

In that moment the only present answer I had to put myself back to sleep was, because I want to, I just want to.
Is that enough?

Do you ever feel like all there is to you are inadequacies and more of the statement

“It’s not good enough”

It’s not good enough is reality and that’s what makes it good enough.

#beginnings

September Special

Welcome to September and welcome to the journal.

As a life Amateur things can get messier and foggy. There are many random thoughts that pop up from our contrasting interests. The fact that we are just starting out and are not really that great at anything can be discouraging. The fact that we are trying to find where we belong is a real challenge…

Join us in our September Series as we approach growth and bring to the open our thoughts that comes with each day.

Feel free to send a long text if these thoughts trouble you or you just want your story out of your chest.

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