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WHAT DO I DO WHEN MY PEACE SEEMS THREATENED?

SHAKING CALM

27 September 2019

“What a wonderful world…. “

We live in a new age world where being restless and anxious is a full blown disease. We sit in the midst of people yet wander to places far from the present. It is now normal to be in the present yet know nothing about what’s happening in the present, because our minds are always seeking for what’s next — not what’s before us.
Now whenever we get a chance to be happy, all we can do is imagine what it would be like when the party is over and the sun goes down. What it’ll be like when life comes back at us.

Why do you want to ruin the present by imagining and meditating on what could go wrong — in the future!

PEACE AND HOPE

Yeah, I keep mentioning this. I can’t hide how overwhelmed and grateful I feel for this. The bible says, “my peace I leave with you…” I have personally experienced this peace. When conflicting ideas and thoughts come to my mind, it feels like my mind is not willing to hold on to it for so long. It just longs to be settled and simply, peaceful.

FEAR

Again. The world will always have opposing forces. It’s not a surprise that in the midst of so much peace and calm, wild thoughts attacks us. It’s not a surprise that when we refuse these thoughts, a new war starts to build up in our minds; FEAR.

We accuse ourselves for being too relaxed. Our mind starts accusing us as being extremely indifferent or too carefree. Our minds can even accuse us for being too scared to face our problems. Such truthful lies!
We’ve lived on this earth long enough to believe a lie that being peaceful is abnormal. The trend is to be worried and overly concerned about all the things we can’t handle at the moment.

In the middle of the calm and peace, there might exist a building fear of loosing this peace. Peace feels so good and miraculous that we might actually start becoming worried of loosing this peace. We forget that this fear itself is a perfect way to start giving out our peace.

Why think about what will happen when you loose your peace of mind… And maybe returned to being the clumsy, anxious, sick kitten? Why do that when you can just — settle.

Lately I’ve been waving off this uncomfortable thought of loosing this peace and hope that I am so excited about, the one I am so surprised and grateful for.
We become scared that the moment we loose our peace, we become fraudsters. It begins to feel like we tricked the world and made them believe in a peace that was just perhaps a mood swing. We get scared of admitting that the growth we so claimed to have was just for a little while. We get scared it will stand against the new practice and lifestyle we’ve come to preach about, enjoy and share with the world around us…

BEING STRONG

Humans have grown so accustomed to waving off the present while holding on to the future in their heads. We can’t deny the fact that the present will always be the present and the future will always be the future. In as much as we are making preparations for a FUTURE downfall, we can also be grateful and happy in the moments we are standing on.

Well, what can I say. Instead of thinking about all these, we could choose to just enjoy this moment while it lasts; this peace. We could always write this feeling down and keep the memory. And when it seems like it’s gone, we could always come back to that entry and know that there was a time we were this peaceful. This can be a great source of hope. If we do this, we might just be filled with the faith that it can happen again.

The faith is not about not getting into bad times and moments; for they must come. The faith believes in fighting… And it says, “fight the good fight of faith.” The faith doesn’t mean we won’t get troubled, it simply tells us to fight with faith when the struggles and worries come. It tells us not to settle for it. It tells us to believe and win over oppositions, even when it seems too hard. It teaches patience in war.

“Change is inevitable.”

Just look at you. Few months ago you were so anxious you’ll never get to this point. Look at you showing off so much power and strength you’ve built up as you passed through your tiny holes… Look at you now in the lights. Even though you might not have so much light around you, now you see the light. Now you have a stronger chance of seeing your way to the bigger lights.

In essence, once you thought it will never be possible but you’re now living in your thought out future impossibility. You have grown more knowledgeable. Stronger. More patient. More open. More vulnerable and better.
Even though your peace and hope will get taken away from you again, always remember that it’s an opportunity to go through another growth process. When you came out of your last struggle, you came out better.

Hope and faith can hold you in this moment of fear. Through hope and faith you can be rooted in a believe that; it will only build your peace. Maybe this time when your peace comes back to you; when you win back your peace, it will be much greater. You will get stronger and firmer.

This is the idle growth mindset and faith.

We must be able to accept who change is and know that change is definitely coming for us. It’s coming on an attempt to take us through the highs and lows so at the end we can become great, strong and skilled surfers of life.
It was through the rough storms and pain that you learnt the value of peace. It was through these moments you discovered the beauty of peace. Would you settle for this place you have now, when you know you can have much more? It was through the journey of anxiety and worry that you found this peace you once never knew to exist.

Even though your beautiful, loved peace goes away, maybe you’ll only journey into a deeper form of peace. A more secured kind, planted in the memories of your journey.
You can choose to enjoy your peace while it lasts and fight for it or you can choose to see the brighter side of the change about to come. You can choose to anticipate just how beautiful, refined and genuine your peace will become when you meet it again.

Growth comes in so many areas of life and time. Just because you’ve grown in one area or phase, doesn’t mean you’re done growing. We never stop growing through life.

Grow with The Purple Journal today.

“I leave the gift of peace with you—my peace. Not the kind of fragile peace given by the world, but my perfect peace. Don’t yield to fear or be troubled in your hearts—instead, be courageous!”
John 14:27 TPT
https://bible.com/bible/1849/jhn.14.27.TPT

NEWS FLASH: For those who didn’t join us from the beginning, this note is to remind you that the purple journal is approaching the end of this series. This series is one that brings to the light, the September thoughts of The Purple Journal as this journal goes through a growth journey.
We strongly encourage people that feel like they just can’t figure out what’s going on in their young lives to give this series a chance. It’s called “In her September thoughts.”
You can also visit past post since the beginning of the month. It will help you move with trail of thoughts and understand better.

How has your month been and what are you planning to grab as the new month arrives?

From The Purple Journal
With love, light and grace…

XOXO

In her September Thoughts

20 Third

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4TH WEEK OF SEPTEMBER
THROUGH OUT THE THIRD WEEK I HAVE:

  1. Been far from the blog and the duty to write here.
  2. Finished reading the book of John.
  3. Been reflecting on the personality of God and need for spirituality (long journey)
  4. Been journaling as we all know. I’ve been having a real schedule for journaling, thanks to the prompts supplied by Lavendaire.
  5. Been practicing conscious gratitude using my gratitude journal.
  6. Been open to notice so much options, lifestyles, ideas and this was not so great in a way but was also great in a way.

“What can I say; change is inevitable…” – The purple journal

PLAIN MIND

23 September 2019
“If you’ve found the things you love, sit back and enjoy the process” – Marie Kondo

To be honest, I feel like the month ran so fast. It feels new writing here again, maybe I would have just continued with the posting while doing the journaling special. But the break also felt right.
I felt a lot of resistance before writing here today. I felt like I had lost the flow.
After now I’ll go back to my journal and observe my previous preparations before I start drafting a blog post.

I mentioned that last week I was engaged in a journaling special. It’s not like it took a lot of my time but I just desired the break. I am still trying to process the results from last week. The fact that they are quite intangible makes it hard to feel and see. This aspect of progress is mostly held by faith, that is why self doubt is a killer. No doubts I still struggle with self doubt but these days I don’t say negative words to myself… I notice the shield I now hold against self doubt and it’s not perfection, it’s not skills or knowledge or awareness, it’s not even growth but it’s hope.

I am amazed by the presence of hope in my life… It’s a feeling I can’t miss. Even in the midst of insecurities, imperfections, ignorance and self doubt I feel it building a wall around my self image and composure. It’s something that I don’t control, I don’t do consciously so it amazes me anytime the feeling arises.

Knowing there is a lot to learn is an overwhelming knowledge itself, but hope and faith works together to keep the mind stable and receptive.
Few months ago, at this time when it feels like I lack direction and my ideas are too disorganized I would have freaked out and gotten angry at myself. This anger transfers so much, that even the slightest shifts off my expectations will cause an up roar in my soul and body. You’ll see me ready to spill out so much negativity but this was bad;The thing is, emotions can be transferred. I look back now and imagine the sort of impact I must have had on my friends. I wonder what kind of energy I was sending off. To admit, it was a rather selfish way to live and express discontent.

Now I sit on this bench an wonder why that reaction is not coming off.
I sit calmly, my composure is okay but deep inside of me I know I have no idea what I am doing. It’s not like I am not worried things aren’t going so great, I am aware, concerned and uncomfortable about it but there is a great absence of stress.

Hope is the reason I haven’t started hitting water bottles and banging the wall. Hope is the reason why my face is not like mashed potatoes now.Hope is the reason I am not playing angry bird right now. Hope is the reason my day is not yet ruined with negativity. Hope is the reason I am typing this, because if I didn’t have hope, I would have settled with the idea that I just don’t have what to upload on the blog today.

I still wonder how this hopeful attitude was born but I love it. I want it to stay and be part of who I am.

GETTING HOPEFUL

I believe having a mindset and knowledge that struggling is inevitable really sets you in the place of hope. It’s a long walk off the victim mentality.

You could only hope (as you work) you’ll grow from the struggle. You could just hope it’ll get better. You could just hope you’ll figure it out along the way.

Hope can be grown by the realisation that discomfort shows the present is not okay and can be changed. If the dream belongs to you it’ll keep coming. . . There are things we truly can’t control, so it’ll still rain when it’s time to rain. Autumn and fall will come around when it’s time so the divine does have a say. There is something called fate whether we believe it or not. And I personally believe all things work for my good because that’s what my Bible tells me. it fills me with so much hope and faith even when the present doesn’t say so. It’s a shower of relieve somewhere inside my beautiful, growing soul.

There are lots of religions and spirituality because it’s a free world. One thing that draws me to the bible is it’s ability to speak of the real human struggles. It’s abiblty to encourage and say out my heart’s troubles. The bible says “In all, there is a time(Season, phase) for everything… Time to sow and time to reap”. Time to be buried into the unknown, time to die off, time to grow new and fresh, time to blossom and time to get the fruits. This just captures the human desire to outrun time but patience is highlighted as a growth factor. So if you really want to grow, learn patience. Pray for it for the sake of your mental and emotional well being. Pray for it so you don’t gain extra pounds bouncing on junk because life is too hard. Pray for it so you don’t frighten the kids and make your friends struggle to be around you.

I said “Plain Mind” because to be honest and plain, I had no idea what I was going to write today. I couldn’t think of anything and I had gone out of the habit of writing daily. I wandered around the house just thinking about how I’ll start. The only option I had was to start by greeting, to start mediocre, to start with a review, to start with what I think nobody wants to hear, to start with the not so great content. Somehow I found myself sending the message of hope. Even though this content is so simple and personal and straight forward, I am honestly proud of it. I am happy I decided to just sit down and go on with the nonsense.

The process you see is something we feel but can’t see the end. In the process everything sum up the the perfection you become. Every junk and blabbing does count; they all sum up to the result.

“In the begin change was intangible and invisible…” – The PurpleJournal.

I leave you with this message and I am happy I took the photo. See you on the better side of tomorrow. That snail up there is my snail, Gary.

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12 September 2019

BIBLE JOURNAL AND FAITH

The LORD sent you, and will tell you what to say.


Today I’ve been reading, studying and pondering on John 12. John 12:40 led me to Isaiah 6:10.
I am a Christain. I do believe in Jesus. Sometimes I don’t feel like a person that believes, I don’t feel like there is Jesus but that’s just a feeling. Yet I have the faith that Jesus is true and that faith you see stays deep and it fills me with guilt when I don’t believe. Complicated sentence right?

Many people do not believe in God or Jesus. They just live their lives and I am very certain this is because of a deep fear they don’t admit to themselves. The fear of not being able to follow up with the Christian principles and works. The fear of lying to yourself for so long. The fear of being deceived. The fear of not living your life to the fullest. The fear of being restricted to a particular lifestyle. The fear of being conscious about your actions. The fear of how difficult it is. But also the weakness of man, the truth that man is weak and not strong enough to be good. The difficulty in doing what’s right.

I myself have questioned the existence of God longer than most unbelievers do. I have shouted to the skies and ask him to show himself to me, even though it’s with a sign. Because I wanted my own eyes to see his glory before I believe. I wanted to see for myself and not by what other people said to me. Why? Because of the fear of being deceived.

God is more spirit and nothing close to human except for the image.

First, If you want to find evidence of God’s existence and Jesus’ sacrifice you must first believe he exists… Just a simple believing first. That’s the deal he keeps. You must first believe before he can show himself to you. Just like any other deal we humans do. You do your part, he does his part and you must do it in honesty.
I am slowly finding reasons to believe in God, which will lead to believing in Jesus. You must first believe the earth did not just appear, believe in the sovereignty of a mighty God before you can start focusing on who Jesus is.

Next, you see Christians believe God gave Jesus so he can save the world. Here is how he led me towards understanding:
Before I say it, PLEASE PICK A BIBLE AND READ ISAIAH 60 and John 12.
NOW, we should start seeing Jesus as more of a principle than constantly demanding to see him. Jesus is rejected by thousands of people because he says the truth. And we all know how hard saying the truth is… There’s the fear of being mocked or beaten or hated or rejected and this fact itself proves the reality Jesus is.
The truth is something hard to be told in this world and Jesus himself being the TRUTH makes it excruciatingly hard to accept him or even talk about him.

Reading the Bible helps you know more of his principles. So to be able to find evidence of his existence you must read his principles and see if it matches what you already see happening now. In this evidence based research you must be willing to talk to him, like just ask him questions even though you hear no answers; this is basically that hard thing Christians call prayer.
We claim to be able to hear our own voices in our head. Sometimes some say things we normally wouldn’t say, sometimes they sound brutal and sometimes sound nice and good. Have we asked ourselves why some are good and some are evil. Have we asked ourselves why sometimes we can’t control the voices. That only means it’s controlled by something we can’t see and understand. Good or bad. And what we can’t see is called a spirit and God is a spirit… Spirit of good and most things the world is against.

Notice how a child is at birth, very inquisitive and gentle and ready to help. That’s the natural state before the tug of war between accepting what’s good and what’s evil.

Jesus is a principle that tells us to say the truth because everyone deserves the truth, to love and to continue spreading these principles with others, so they themselves will do good things and the earth is all rainbows. Jesus now is rejected by humans and seen as a fairytale.
Is this not what is happening now?

God said he sent his son Jesus, the word, the truth, the light in a dark world where everyone is ready to kill…. Why? Because God knew if people followed Jesus, this principle of saying the truth, loving people and giving to people about to die; He knew if the earth does this there will be less war, less starvation and wicked government, less greed because the truth will be told, less killing to acquire properties because everyone is ready to give. The world will be saved from all these evil and killing and selfishness and hurt, from this suicide bombing and harassment and discrimination and strive to please other people. Because like God commands “Don’t anger someone to sin”. If we obeyed God we wouldn’t do things to make someone angry and filled with hate.
God’s gospel from my understanding is truth, love, light, doing hard things and being rejected by majority of the world… Because the truth is hard for the world. The world chooses to just reject him and tell themselves there is no God. Meanwhile this very principle plays in our society.

Jesus is not just a religion, He is a way of life that saves man. The economy will be easier and killing will not be easy because love will be around.

Humans are lazy. We really don’t like hard work so we choose not to do hard things. We see the principal of Jesus taught in moral classes and company regulations but we are afraid to commit and choose to ignore Him.

If you want to learn more, pick the bible and watch God show you the original principles of the earth
Isaiah 6:9-10 says the whole conflict:

Isaiah 6:9 NLT
 And he said, “Yes, go, and say to this people, ‘Listen carefully, but do not understand. Watch closely, but learn nothing.’
 Isaiah 6:10 NLT
 Harden the hearts of these people. Plug their ears and shut their eyes. That way, they will not see with their eyes, nor hear with their ears, nor understand with their hearts and turn to me for healing.”
 https://bible.com/bible/116/isa.6.9.NLT

P. S To be honest most Christians make Christianity hard to accept because you don’t resonate to their picture of him. Some don’t even practice what they teach. God is spirit, God is love, Jesus is the truth that saves the earth from doing evil. All God wants is for you to believe in Jesus, that is, doing good will save the earth and will continue to save the earth.
“Where is the love? where is Jesus? “

I admit this is not all to Christianity, I admit Christian have their hard practices and rituals… But all God really wants is that you believe in Jesus (his word) and Jesus will save you and the world. And the greatest Christian practice is just to spread this word, that is Jesus despite the rejection. That you should live a lifestyle that displays Jesus, the truth.

Christians believe that Jesus is the only way to God that means the truth, love and doing good is the only way to God.

I wish I can say it all here. The earth is waiting for Jesus to appear before they believe him but we here on earth are suppose to adopt that spirit of truth and just live by it. The truth is hard.
Jesus dying on the cross just symbolises the fact that God have plans we can’t understand because we are are human. His death serves a purpose of forgiveness even when we fail in doing what’s right and just. So we can always ask for forgiveness and start again.

Jesus is everywhere because everyone demands to be told to truth.

Give God a chance, set aside other people’s ideas and go seek him yourself by believing and reading his word. He will guide you through even when you don’t see him.

You will grow in your faith. .

I was able to understand and explain from this perspective because I’ve been praying even when I hear no answers out loud and I’ve been reading the Bible even when I don’t understand.

God speaks through out thinking and advice from people that matches to his word and God teaches humans to be patient.

Give him a chance, open your heart and do hard things…

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05 September 2019

TRUTH

The strong voices inside my head?


Our mind is a really fast one. There should be a myth that speaks of how the mind tends to be a person of it’s own, because most times we are randomly thinking of things we didn’t think of thinking. Ironic.

The ability to control ones mind can be tagged a great super power. And yes, it’s a super power. It goes beyond what we can see. For something we know to exist but cannot see, that is, the mind. It’s possible it can also be controlled by something that exists but we cannot see.

The power of the mind is a core of existence. With the mind plans and ideas are born, emotions are starred into existence and creativity is realised but when it comes to thinking, it seems to take more and more of the lead.
A prayer to God requesting the grace to control ones mind and think the right thoughts might just turn out to be the solution to your problems and the beginning to a whole new perspective and attitude.
The mind really does change everything.
Romans 12:2 proves that God very well understood the power the mind can have over humans and I believe he has made provisions to deal with it.

Today, I like to think of the mind as that part of ourselves that chases it’s kind. We can’t see the mind, therefore it lives hunting the things we don’t see. It’s more of a spirit. The mind is the part of ourselves that connects to the world we don’t see but does exists. It houses the spirits we don’t see and that’s why it’s hard to control the mind.
If you can understand that even words are spirits, then the previous paragraph wouldn’t leave you feeling like this is too spiritual.

The mind is a house more like a battlefield where spirits come to live and possibly fight over your will; thinking right or wrong. Offer your mind to God to control.
The physical you here can’t see your mind. Your mind is a spirit being that can see just what’s inside. 

The soul the spirit being and God the spirit being. 
Together make a man.

This morning I saw an orange butterfly and I said, “Hey nameless, do you even have a mind of your own? If you don’t then you aren’t really living.” It has no battles to fight and challenges to take down. If you really want to change what you are, you first have to gain the power to tame your mind. Your mind is your existence itself. Your mind: your soul, thinking and thoughts, will power or decision power, your emotions, planned reactions, the subconscious, the spirits you let possess your body… All need to be refined…