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Life Reset At Eighteen!

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I am holding up for a LIFE RESET AT 18.

First, I’ll love to scream this, “I’m back!”. This writer is resurrected, I pray.

Hurray to you all like me looking forward to a life reset as you turn big 18 [and those anticipating 18].
Age eighteen is society’s golden age, most of us “day old eighteens” are busy trying to pull the best outfit, the best party and share the most gorgeous images straight out of the studio. Nice one.


If you are a control and productivity fanatic like me, well, you are definitely not alone. Welcome. Here’s a ghost cup of coffee, tea [or any refreshment you love] sit back, relax, I will just roll over a fresh canvas and we can start this reset art.


Why am I looking forward to a life reset?


You see, big eighteen is society’s grand license to more expectations and it’s not easy to skip on the demands pilling up from yourself to do better.
No pressure. I’m not pressuring myself or expecting myself to figure everything out, no. I just did a good reflection and saw some flaws in my character that I’m paying for with my fulfillment as a young person.


This is my personal way of giving myself another chance to start all over again with all the qualities I took for granted: actions, boldness, consistency, discipline, commitment, systems, and so on. If I don’t declare a reset I’ll feel uneasy and like I’m just trying to mend old failures but what I want is a new person trying to be better as an individual… bringing to life with baby steps all the characteristics and disposition I’ll love to see in myself.
It would not be hasty; it will not be perfect [though I love the idea of perfect]. It will be struggling to choose commitment daily as much as I can. It will be doing the work rather than just making endless lists.
Your turn. What is your why?

How am I carrying out this reset?

My photo before 12:00am
  • WRITING X JOURNALING


For the past 10 days before my birthday, I tried putting down in a digital notepad [keep notes] all my reflections and thoughts I had about the coming big 18 and ending 17. This helped me with a glimpse of clarity in what I think I did wrong, did right and what I will love to change; then came a list of things I’ll want to do.
So:
I created a random document in my phone called “life reset” and dropped an idea of what I’ll like to do whenever the idea came and after a while I tried considering and organizing the events.

  • DECLUTTER
From google


Believe me this was a big deal to me. I am yet to see some of the results but there is peace in knowing you have less around you. It makes sense that as you try to RESET, you take out things that you don’t use anymore or you are no longer acquainted with. It ushers in that sense of freshness and newness. Try not to go overboard with this or analyze this too much. Try not to remove things that you’ll regret, just remove whatever you know is not necessary.

Here is what I did:

I deleted contacts that I didn’t use frequently and those I had second thoughts about; I wrote them down in the contact form at the back of my journal just in case the need for them arises. Believe me I wanted to remove so much more than I already did but some acquaintances need to stay even though communication is not frequent example course mates, and people that think they know you but don’t.
I deleted videos, images, messages, apps, files, SONGS. I love music; so much. But I knew I had to let go of those songs I’m so quick to next when they start playing. What is the use of having a long list of songs when you’re always skipping a lot [I can always download again when I finally miss them]. This felt hard at first but after then, I felt really good.

I know I will still do more of decluttering because of the fresh feeling it holds. I’m looking forward to library and wardrobe declutter once I am ready for thrift shopping.
The act of decluttering did set that vibe of a rest… The mood was ignited. That’s pretty much it [for me at least]

  • BIG CHANGE


I FINALLY came up with what all this was about. Why? Why do I want to change? Goals and tasks are based on a central desire. Choosing that desire automatically puts you through your goals when systems are created. Mine was:


▪️Reducing procrastination as much as possible.
▪️Growing discipline
▪️Taking more actions more than I make lists and goals. That is, being less passive and more active.

And the plan here was to stick with taking baby steps DAILY until I sink into autopilot.

  • SHEDULES AND ROUTINES


OKAY, I am still in the process of creating a functioning, realistic and productive schedule and building it into a routine. My goal for this routine is:

to know what to do and realize the time for actions, not necessary living an adventure-free routine life. No, just scheduling my activities and guarding those times least I neglect my commitments.


I have certainly asked myself, are you ready to commit? And I try to say to myself, that no matter how small and mundane these tasks may seem, it is not here to give me glory but to help mould my character as a young adult.

I am yet to establish these routines but I hope it goes well and I HOPE to stay committed daily and I won’t feel to make adjustments if any time block fails.
I am going to adopt the pomodoro method of getting this done [tomato unit 🍅] and soon enough I’ll have feedbacks. Also, I’ll be scheduling specific tasks for specific time blocks.

Be sure to watch youtube videos, ask question to both trusted people and google [yet guard your choices]. Get to know how others are pulling through. All these will open you to new ideas you’ll love to test.

  • BOOKS

IN ALL you do, never neglect reading books. Make it a frequent task as much as you can. As for me:
I will be exploring classic novels and financial books, I pray and I will try to take aesthetically pleasing photos of which ever I engage in [for the gram and my eyes].

Try as much as possible to explore new genres of books as this might open you to new interests or ideas.

  • LANGUAGE


YES I will be learning a new language and I think you should. I am doing this clearly from my love of accents, polyglots and playing characters. They say passion is not enough so I have gone to google and searched up,

“Why it is important that I learn a second language”.

There you have it. As for me, my first pick is Spanish for a second language. So please remind me I am a becoming student of Spanish, gracias. I am about to buy a cheap Spanish lesson notebook which I’ll be using for this long journey. And I hope to make a future blog post on my progress and process under the category productivity and growth. Speaking of categories…

  • THE BIBLE
  • I have not been reading my Bible and that has to change. Whether it was born from my reflection or from God’s will… It remains beautiful

I have not been reading my Bible and that has to change. Whether it was born from my reflection or from God’s will… It remains beautiful. Recently I kept wondering why I am a fanatic for romance and for love in general, love displayed in life overall. I concluded that I might just be in love with love itself… Within a moment of epiphany I realized that God is love and Jesus must be real. I realized that it could be Jesus himself showing me the beauty of love: who he is himself and why I should love. I choose faith, I choose to love him because he loved me first… And I’m reading the Bible to learn how to love, to change into all those qualities I admire. I choose to grow in love

  • CATEGORIES

I HAVE temporarily categorized my actions and focus into the following: productivity, language, school, reading, socials, spiritual, photography, and looks. It’s not fixed, things can change, and this will help me organize my actions, mobile space and information.

TYPYING ALL these now just showed me how much I am planning on committing to. This would SURELY not be easy because I am a respectable, high ranked, professional procrastinator and planner without major actions. But then again, that’s it. That’s what I desperately want to change.

I hope to share my progress via my instagram account and brush that one a bit as I am a lover of aesthetically pleasing photos.

Due to the Coronavirus pandemic my plan of purchasing a camera and learning editing has been suspended till further notice.


I HOPE to keep up with school work and study my bible frequently. All these, I wish to DO, key word, DO.
It’s been a long chat, I forgot to refill your cup of tea [or whatever you may be drinking], forgive my manners. It’s been a pleasure chatting with you on my birthday and new age.

Above all, I pray I don’t sleep out of my commitments for I will deeply break my heart and accountability all over again.
And like I said before, Baby steps, that’s just what it is.

Blossom

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In her September Thoughts

20 Third

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4TH WEEK OF SEPTEMBER
THROUGH OUT THE THIRD WEEK I HAVE:

  1. Been far from the blog and the duty to write here.
  2. Finished reading the book of John.
  3. Been reflecting on the personality of God and need for spirituality (long journey)
  4. Been journaling as we all know. I’ve been having a real schedule for journaling, thanks to the prompts supplied by Lavendaire.
  5. Been practicing conscious gratitude using my gratitude journal.
  6. Been open to notice so much options, lifestyles, ideas and this was not so great in a way but was also great in a way.

“What can I say; change is inevitable…” – The purple journal

PLAIN MIND

23 September 2019
“If you’ve found the things you love, sit back and enjoy the process” – Marie Kondo

To be honest, I feel like the month ran so fast. It feels new writing here again, maybe I would have just continued with the posting while doing the journaling special. But the break also felt right.
I felt a lot of resistance before writing here today. I felt like I had lost the flow.
After now I’ll go back to my journal and observe my previous preparations before I start drafting a blog post.

I mentioned that last week I was engaged in a journaling special. It’s not like it took a lot of my time but I just desired the break. I am still trying to process the results from last week. The fact that they are quite intangible makes it hard to feel and see. This aspect of progress is mostly held by faith, that is why self doubt is a killer. No doubts I still struggle with self doubt but these days I don’t say negative words to myself… I notice the shield I now hold against self doubt and it’s not perfection, it’s not skills or knowledge or awareness, it’s not even growth but it’s hope.

I am amazed by the presence of hope in my life… It’s a feeling I can’t miss. Even in the midst of insecurities, imperfections, ignorance and self doubt I feel it building a wall around my self image and composure. It’s something that I don’t control, I don’t do consciously so it amazes me anytime the feeling arises.

Knowing there is a lot to learn is an overwhelming knowledge itself, but hope and faith works together to keep the mind stable and receptive.
Few months ago, at this time when it feels like I lack direction and my ideas are too disorganized I would have freaked out and gotten angry at myself. This anger transfers so much, that even the slightest shifts off my expectations will cause an up roar in my soul and body. You’ll see me ready to spill out so much negativity but this was bad;The thing is, emotions can be transferred. I look back now and imagine the sort of impact I must have had on my friends. I wonder what kind of energy I was sending off. To admit, it was a rather selfish way to live and express discontent.

Now I sit on this bench an wonder why that reaction is not coming off.
I sit calmly, my composure is okay but deep inside of me I know I have no idea what I am doing. It’s not like I am not worried things aren’t going so great, I am aware, concerned and uncomfortable about it but there is a great absence of stress.

Hope is the reason I haven’t started hitting water bottles and banging the wall. Hope is the reason why my face is not like mashed potatoes now.Hope is the reason I am not playing angry bird right now. Hope is the reason my day is not yet ruined with negativity. Hope is the reason I am typing this, because if I didn’t have hope, I would have settled with the idea that I just don’t have what to upload on the blog today.

I still wonder how this hopeful attitude was born but I love it. I want it to stay and be part of who I am.

GETTING HOPEFUL

I believe having a mindset and knowledge that struggling is inevitable really sets you in the place of hope. It’s a long walk off the victim mentality.

You could only hope (as you work) you’ll grow from the struggle. You could just hope it’ll get better. You could just hope you’ll figure it out along the way.

Hope can be grown by the realisation that discomfort shows the present is not okay and can be changed. If the dream belongs to you it’ll keep coming. . . There are things we truly can’t control, so it’ll still rain when it’s time to rain. Autumn and fall will come around when it’s time so the divine does have a say. There is something called fate whether we believe it or not. And I personally believe all things work for my good because that’s what my Bible tells me. it fills me with so much hope and faith even when the present doesn’t say so. It’s a shower of relieve somewhere inside my beautiful, growing soul.

There are lots of religions and spirituality because it’s a free world. One thing that draws me to the bible is it’s ability to speak of the real human struggles. It’s abiblty to encourage and say out my heart’s troubles. The bible says “In all, there is a time(Season, phase) for everything… Time to sow and time to reap”. Time to be buried into the unknown, time to die off, time to grow new and fresh, time to blossom and time to get the fruits. This just captures the human desire to outrun time but patience is highlighted as a growth factor. So if you really want to grow, learn patience. Pray for it for the sake of your mental and emotional well being. Pray for it so you don’t gain extra pounds bouncing on junk because life is too hard. Pray for it so you don’t frighten the kids and make your friends struggle to be around you.

I said “Plain Mind” because to be honest and plain, I had no idea what I was going to write today. I couldn’t think of anything and I had gone out of the habit of writing daily. I wandered around the house just thinking about how I’ll start. The only option I had was to start by greeting, to start mediocre, to start with a review, to start with what I think nobody wants to hear, to start with the not so great content. Somehow I found myself sending the message of hope. Even though this content is so simple and personal and straight forward, I am honestly proud of it. I am happy I decided to just sit down and go on with the nonsense.

The process you see is something we feel but can’t see the end. In the process everything sum up the the perfection you become. Every junk and blabbing does count; they all sum up to the result.

“In the begin change was intangible and invisible…” – The PurpleJournal.

I leave you with this message and I am happy I took the photo. See you on the better side of tomorrow. That snail up there is my snail, Gary.

In her September Thoughts

6ixTh September

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PROCESS


WARNING: Sorry for the in coming raw emotion with the heat.

In an ever new digital fast paced world with early success stories it’s easy to kill yourself. All the way from this point, no thanks to the speed at which success can be shared. No thanks to the boat load of problems globalization has created from trying to solve problems. The mass of information out there makes it all so hard to process. This only proves Mark Manson’s words that solving problems will help create more… Still, thanks to all these emotional and psychological pain and struggles because they sure lead us to who we are meant to be. That’s growth. The not so pretty part is called process.

I had to understand the meaning of process. Process was just a usual science class term but you see, it’s the restlessness and struggles I have felt that helped write the meaning of process on the thick walls of my heart and that definitely had to be painful. hard nail writing on my heart, ouchhhhh!

After thinking about the Buddha, the once confused prince who sat under a tree for over 49 days and came to a realization that “Pain is inevitable (unavoidable)”, I also have sat under all my confusions and for solid 9 seconds came with a mantra that “Everything is necessary”. This include all the ugly things and situations we’ve experienced.

See, Marsai Martin born on 14th of August 2004 (that means she’s just fifteen) is already a producer. She has something great starting in her life. At least she does have a direction or niche now. Yes, after stalking on her, I thought about my life. How old am I? yes I’m older than her and yes I am still as confused as the car that looks like a bus. Maybe a truck.
It was around April that I made a post saying:

“I am tired of reading so many success stories, please give me a book about a failure who failed till the end!”

At that time I just wanted to grab and read on some story that sounded like mine. But I hope I’m not thinking like this anymore.

All I’m trying to say is that, we are here, right now in this hard phase.
I read Aileen’s article and hearing her list my emotions and conditions one by one made me feel so ecstatic. So relieved that I’m not too extra or not taking things too seriously. That I’m not just being dramatic or too ambitious.

All the things you don’t have, all the equipment you can’t avoid, all the places you can’t go, all the opportunities you don’t have… all exist because it’s necessary they don’t exist now. Because they might not be what you need now… Maybe all you need now is to change or sit or sleep or pray or read or stalk or go to Bible school or…
In this world we all have a purpose, and there are principles, attitudes and spirits that are willing to help us become who we were made to be. To find that fulfillment.

The best of artists where made by being able to do something out of the little they were given.

And I ask you just as Aileen asked me in her article(yes I took it personal):
“Does any of these sound familiar? “
Are you constantly comparing yourself to every appealing success protagonists?
Are you lost, confused and obviously frustrated?

Do you want to cry right now or you mildly wish you can be in a comma for a while?
You know you want to do great amazing things but just don’t know where to start.
You are scared of oblivion just like me and the whole idea of being mediocre makes you anxious and sad. It kills you that there is a possibility your a mediocre and not creative enough. You feel like jumping into an ocean because you can’t just find your direction in life. You want to move somewhere, possibly fly but you don’t know how to. You have so many questions to ask. You are angry you can’t afford all the nice things you need to get started on something… The lists go on and on.

I’ve come to a realization after all these emotions hunted me.
You just can’t skip the process.
And everybody have their time. For you to grow your soul needs to heal. The time taken might just depend on how broken your self image is. Maybe.

All these emotions makes up the process. It’s necessary because you don’t just wake up and have life already figured out. More often, it’s through living that you get to learn more about yourself and interests.

The process offers you the opportunity to know that everything is not fine and you could be much more. It’s in the process you learn how to be stronger. It’s in the process you learn how to deal with oppositions.
It’s the process that brings out your success attitude; being bold, having faith, being ready, being brave with your ideas….

My feelings overwhelm me and I can’t wait to get out of this process phase but rather than paying attention to the struggles, I have decided to take note of all the lessons but that doesn’t mean I won’t cry when it gets hard or I won’t complain to myself for a while.

I can testify that I have now found the answers to some of my questions. More are still unanswered but I have to wait for them to unfold.
Sometimes all you have to do is wait for life to unfold but constantly making sure you’re not waving off every opportunity while waiting.

Sometimes it’s about obeying your instincts and taking a chance on the unknown.

Aileen, the lady behind the Lavendaire blog created a course for dealing with these emotions and creating your dream life. I am not working and can’t pay for this class and that’s a pity for me. I’ll have to learn the hard way. I am happy she still left tips on how she grew from this phase. I remember her talking about all the books she read and the leaps of faith she took; And I am going to start off by taking these steps.

If you have this money or a few bucks to spare, make a sacrifice and enroll into this course. It sure looks pretty and feels hopeful.
Though we can’t actually skip the process, this might save you more time and make you ready for the process.
You can check out this amazing article with the link below.
https://lavendaire.lpages.co/create-your-dream-life/

You can also check her instagram and YouTube videos
@Lavendaire

You can also take a chance and read Mark Manson’s Book, The subtle art of not giving a f*ck.
Gratitude for the few answered questions is a great way to enjoy the process…

P. S This is not a sponsored post. Just mere recommendations.

Let’s grow together.